Do you ever just want to ask for a do-over?
Let’s see what happened in just one day:
- I stared blankly at my computer screen, even though I had carefully put together a To Do list and schedule last night.
- I got a reminder call about my neurology appointment – that I had never put on the calendar.
- Realizing I was thisclose to paying a huge bill late (or overdrawing the account if I didn’t get to the bank soon).
- I left my cell phone at home while picking up the kids.
- In the carpool lane at older son’s school, a teacher and I were looking for my son and his friend…until I remembered they stay late on Tuesdays for clubs.
I’d blame it on MS if I could, but I think I’d be messing all of this up even if I didn’t have MS. All of the stress and anxiety I’ve let take over my life has just gotten to be too much.
So now it’s time for a do-over.
- It’s time for me to start eating again. Yes, I lost 30 pounds, but not eating is a lame diet. I’ve been reading books, checking out websites, and asking doctors. Everyone said something different.
- I was doing so much better after all of the inpatient and outpatient physical therapy I did last year. Nothing like a personal freak-out to erase all of that good. So I went back for more sessions. My physical therapist gave me an easy-to-follow program for strengthening and balance. Now I just have to follow it.
- Fixing the calendar. I’ve got two kids on two different school schedules. I’ve got my college instructor husband returning to work next week. Oh, and I’ve got to get work done between carpools and errands and appointments and my tendency to procrastinate.
Now it’s time to add just one more thing to my plan. Breathe.